Saturday 28 October 2017

Carolinian Cathedral

I decided to roam a little further afield this afternoon. The weather remains warm and the sun was shining so I drove a little north of here into the next county where there are lovely regional forests to wander. I chose the Sudden Regional Forest, a tract of land that had been acquired in 1944 by the County, and which is 88 hectares of Carolinian forest, meaning generally large leaf trees including beech, walnut and chestnut. Apparently, this definition is widely debated, but what is not up for debate is the speed at which it is diminishing, the rarity of some of the species particular to it, and the pressing need for its conservation. For me, on this day, it is enough to be aware of its uniqueness, and walk in appreciation of its beauty.
This forest is in a region called the Waterloo Sandhills, which means that it displays glacial features such as moraine ridges, and valleys with small ponds,all resulting from the movement of glaciers through this part of Ontario. It was like entering a wooded cathedral; towering tree trunks enclosing a sacred spot. It was very quiet; no birdsong and complete solitude. When I look around, the lower canopy is elm and beech, the middle maple and walnut, and the upper canopy enormous oaks. 
The easterly floor was covered in wintergreen or teaberry. Oil of wintergreen, which is distilled from the leaves, is primarily composed of methyl salicylate, poisonous in large amounts, but when the methyl component is removed, acetylsalicylic acid crystals remain. As well as oil, the leaves produce a substance called arbutin which when heated provides relief for muscles aches. The berries, which are about the size of a pea, are edible and a favorite treat for chipmunks, deer etc.. If not for these little red gems that catch your eye, one might walk by this low-growing plant and not give it a second look. Valuable lessons in looking down this time.
There is a grove of tamaracks, (not to be confused with a Quebecois expletive), which are turning yellow. This is a deciduous conifer tree; its needles turn colour in the fall, drop off leaving naked branches with small cones on them, and then are replaced in the spring. So I guess not all evergreens, are. Once you realize that the display of soft yellow is normal and not the result of some strange, dreaded disease, one can enjoy this lovely evergreen anomaly.
Something else enjoying the sunny hillside, is the Round-lobed Hepatica or Liverleaf. I don't exactly see a liver when I look at this plant, but perhaps whoever named it saw the leaves in the spring when they are a darker purplish brown colour? They certainly are a treat to see in the spring as they have a delicate flower of purple or pink that sways in the breeze. I was interested to find hepatica in the wild, as I had used it as a prescribed homeopathic remedy for bronchitis in my older son, with remarkable effect.
Nestled on the hillside, almost hidden by leaves, were brilliant carpets of emerald moss. With the sunlight calling attention so these verdant areas, I wanted to touch them and perhaps have a wee nap. 
This pond below the ridge is so leaf-covered as to be almost indistinguishable from the hillside.
A large section of boardwalk winds its way through the wetland. The trees were mostly bare and beside the boardwalk, the paths of the muskrats who live there are more visible. There was a lot of rustling in the reeds, and I was good until the Doctor Who episode called "What's That Under The Bed" came to mind and I had a moment of disquiet. I did however notice:
a red dragonfly, possibly a white-faced meadowhawk 
 liverwort, the wider and flatter green plant in the photo (apparently a primitive plant, as in very old, and often called "the simplest true plant")
 skunk cabbage thinking its spring again
 alder cones
lichen on the side of a rotting board
The Blue beech tree tolerates moisture so it can be found next to wetlands. The texture of the bark is smooth but it has vertical furrows which gave rise to its common name of musclewood. It is a small tree in height and diameter, but its wood is very strong and was formerly used by pioneers for making tool handles. 
This section of the trail loops back on itself so I have returned to where I started. (I don't think I will follow that line of thought) I leave with mental and digital pictures, ready to face the world again. Well, that might be overstating things a little.


"To me, nature is sacred; trees are my temples and forests are my cathedrals"  Mikhail Gorbachev

Thursday 26 October 2017

An Exercise in Mindfulness

I was reading a blog written by a young woman who lives in Ireland. It was about the recent Hurricane Ophelia and her response to it. She said that they prepared as much as possible then just hunkered down as a family and were grateful for a unique day all together.  Such a good way to approach the stormy weather of life, isn't it? Prepare the best you can, live in the moment and be grateful. 
 

While I am certain that this is an understatement of her feelings during this time, I was thinking about this because it pertained to the family "hurricane" that happened this week; a sudden maelstrom of events involving hospitals and illness, and of emotions like fear and even anger. The kind of storm that reminds you of the fragility of life and uncertainty of the future. There was in the moment, no physical response that I could make, nothing specific that I could do, which left me waiting for news and trying to cope with my emotional response, which generally goes straight to Dire and all possible Worst Case Scenarios.
For some folks these situations leads to all manner of strenuous cleaning or baking activities, but in my case this leads directly to a forest path. As our October weather has been especially warm but the walnut trees have shed most of their leaves. (the walnut bombs remain and a hard hat would probably be wise) The maples are vibrant yellows and oranges with the occasional breath-taking red, and the oak trees are finally changing their green garb for a short display of gold and deep red. I feel like I need be outside to soak up all the beauty and store it away for bleak November days. 
I read this statement this morning. 'Feeling unsure and lost is part of your path. Don't avoid it. See what those feelings are showing you and use it.' I turned it around in my mind for a bit and several things emerged; a question - why do we feel unique in our experience, when clearly it is a universal condition?; a realization - I am grieving; an understanding - the forest paths are a comfort not simply because they feed my soul, but because I know where they go, and where I will arrive. Possibly not earth-shattering revelations, but useful to me. So I headed for the bridge.
I was reminded of an exercise that I had heard about. A friend had used it to help prevent panic attacks caused by her fear of flying. It is a tool to use your five senses to bring your mind to focus only on the present moment. This is a short version of the several that I have seen. 

     5 Things That I See
 
a foraging deer
a sleeping raccoon
creepy fungus called dead man's fingers
an inquisitive chickadee
tiny orange eyelash cup fungus

     4 Things that you Feel
 the rough pod and silky wings of the milkweed
 the texture of the tree that the beaver has started work on
 the suede-like coat of the hickory nut pod
the smoothness of the huge sycamore leaf

     3 Things you Can Hear
the alert of the chipmunk
the cricket-like call of the cedar waxwings

the squirrel working on a walnut

     2 Things you Can Smell
 
the earthy scent of the leaves

the river tumbling over the rapids

     1 Thing You Can Taste
I look all around me at the things which I see birds and animals eating, the wealth of natural provision growing all around me. An amazing bounty, none of which I plan to sample at this time however. 

I'm not sure yet how I feel; nothing in my life has changed, and I still must face the challenge of coping with my fears and what life puts on my plate each day. However, letting the sun shine on my face and listening to the leaves rustle in the wind is soothing to the soul. Taking a moment to wonder and marvel at something outside ourselves, and to take a deep breath because we have realized that we are holding it; that is food for the soul. 

Shinrin-Yoku  -  Japanese noun for "forest bathing" - the medicine of being in the forest